But just a short while later:
And I guess I’d rather have a sovereign God who is far above me, even if it means He is mysterious and confusing, than have a god who is easily-controlled and who I can manipulate to do whatever I want him to do. What kind of a god would that be!?!
I guess through all the trials and the deserts, I am learning to trust in God as He really is, instead of just trying to make Him into the God I want Him to be. It’s a learning process. A long, slow learning process. But I know He’s walking through it with me. Patiently. Lovingly. Graciously.