One of the most gorgeous days today. In a long time. It was in the 60’s and sunny with a nice, little breeze. And so we took off school today to enjoy this wonderful blessing. (We save our Spring Break days for the good days and work through the yucky ones.) And so I had a chance to work in the garden: cleaning up weeds, planting onions, trimming dead rose branches. (This last winter was brutal. I had to cut all my roses down to the ground except my old-fashioned shrub roses: Therese Bugnet, Blanc Double de Coubert, and Rose de Rescht. I’m praying that they all come back fine.)
But I’ve noticed something this spring. After having a very depressed winter – struggling to adjust to this deep loneliness, accepting the fact that the book I wrote is going nowhere, and dealing with the fears that I’ll never do a “good enough” job in any area of my life – I had really hoped that I would find some joy in the garden.